I was in the darkness;
I could not see my words
Nor the wishes of my heart.
Then suddenly there was a great light–
“Let me into the darkness again.”
(Image: Bruce Van Valen)
today as others
i rise up again to cry
this one piercing note
I had trouble pulling this together, but reading Sylvia’s post this morning inspired me to find the words I was searching for. Thanks, Sylvia! By the way, if anyone wants a real treat, head over to Sylvia’s place at spanishwoods. The photos are wonderful (she often uses her son Wolf’s photos, and they both have an unerring eye for line and color) and the words she adds are always beautiful, intelligent, and very well done.
(Image taken from here)
I walk along the bank
of Tumble Creek,
No, I really
should be honest.
I’m just wandering about,
stopping to look
at whatever interests me—
which can be
if one’s heart
rests in the chest
heavy, round, settled,
like a pumpkin
in a silent field.
I am impatient with these branches, this light.
The sky, however blue, intrudes.
Because I’ve begun to see
there is something else I must do,
I can’t quite catch the rhythm
of days I moved well to in other winters.
The steeple tree
was cut down, the one that daybreak
used to guild–that fervor of birds and cherubim
subdued. Drought has dulled
many a green blade.
I know a different need has begun
to cast its line out from me into
a place unknown, I reach
for a silence almost present,
elusive among my heartbeats.
My apologies to all those who read the first posting of this–I accidentally left out a line which has since been edited back in. I am usually very careful with others’ poetry, and it was not my intention to disrupt the meaning or flow of this excellent poem.
I pass them every morning now
as they wait for the belching yellow bus,
standing sheep-like in sociable little groups.
Others wait off to the side,
weighed down by heavy books
or ill-fitting years, the “strange ones,”
and I find myself hoping they haven’t
quietly discovered the secret
we grownups desperately try to keep—
that we are thrown into this world
by some comical god
or chancy Randomness;
that we are all just trying to make
our dizzy way through life
knowing nothing much will come of it.